What I did do to make things better is buy the iTunes app for the South Beach diet for my phone for $1.99. I rejected the offer of an additional $4.99 for the additional recipes for now. I start tomorrow so wish me luck. Tonight I am drinking my last Belgo Belgian style Pale ale and enjoying a dessert of chocolate chip banana cake for the last time for awhile.
I love the South Beach diet, I really do. The first time I was on it I lost close to 30 pounds and the second time was closer to 20. Both times resulted in a pregnancy might I add so I stopped following it. Three boys is plenty, thank you very much.
But this time I am going to do it. I know, I know! Sure you are! Right? You, the reader who has followed me knows that losing weight is a topic that I am constantly talking about. But this time something is different. It hit me the other day that I am overweight, really overweight. My clothes hurt my skin, and the it just broke my heart to think of what this has done to my husband.
I know he loves me unconditionally but I have gained close to 50 pounds over our almost 14 year marriage and using the excuse that I've had three kids in a four year period is getting old. My youngest is 6 for goodness sakes! I also don't want to be a fat mom. If you didn't have a fat mom growing up then you might not understand. I was teased and forced to defend my moms weight when to me it didn't matter, but kids can be mean. The other day my youngest who is 6 called me "fatty". That hurt but he's right, I am fat. But don't for a second think that I let him get away with calling me that. He had a talking to about name calling, I don't wants kids to be judgmental. So that's that in a nutshell. Tomorrow I start phase one of South Beach and I am going to do great! I will post again about this topic in two weeks to let y'all know how I did then its on to phase 2. Hope you had a great weekend. I had an epiphany about my life and what I want, and it's not to be overweight anymore!
